Habakkuk JOY

3 vs 17-19
"though the fig tree does not bud and there are no grapes on the vines, though the olive crop fails and the fields produce no food, though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls, YET i will rejoice in the Lord, I will be joyful in God my savior. The Sovereign Lord is my strength; he makes my feet like the feet of a deer, he enables me to go on the heights."

Habakkuk means "to embrace".


when all around is rain and clouds and darkness,

when all the people around you are fake and fail you in every way,

when all you see around the world is suffering and hate and greed,

remember.

that there is a power unexplanable

that will make you able

to merely cope? NO

to merely survive? NO

to thrive? YES

to rejoice? YES

and this joy will enable you to "embrace" things as they are and be strong.

a joy that will prompt you to sing a song.

a joy that will be visible in the vibe you give.

a joy that will shine through the life you live.

a supernatural joy.

so in these times of promised change,

know that the word of man is as changing as a the score of a basketball game.

and find your joy in the Lord,

knowing that you will not be let down.

EVER

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Hello everyone,

My life has been changed forever. On January 1, the first day of this glorious year, I saw her... She was breathtakingly beautiful and her smile was like the sunshine. I was a little too nervous to talk to her but luckily she came up to me. Then I finally got up the courage and called her and boy am I glad I did. I can't believe she went out with me. It was great. I even got a new guy friend from hanging out with her. I want to talk to her every night. I am done searching I have found the one and I hope I don't do anything to mess that up. I am going to get an earring. Sometimes I cry at night wishing she was here. I just wanted you to know how I felt about this whole post being a work of fiction. The fantasy of a certain corinn on how my affection toward her should be. She is very creative in her mind, and how she comes up with this i do not know. But there is some truth here, i must be honest; January 1 is the first day of the year. This i cannot deny. Also corinn did come on the prowl for me, actually quite aggresively now that i think of it...but what can i say? i claim to know what women want, but when they want me, sometimes things happen a little bit unpredictably.
So again, there is some truth in this fantasaical post, but unfortunately the fiction far outweighs the facts.

spoke

the spoken word:

the expression of some thing observed?
reviving some things once heard?
occuring in a time where "to be heard" is absurd?
living on throughout generations? (if it holds merit to do so)
immortal but not invisible or God only wise...
visibility being its vessel and God being the inspiration for some...

and now to the Punch:

for the word NOT SPOKEn,
is like the bike wheel with the SPOKEs removed; easily contorted, weak, doomed to ultimate collapse.
the word on the page that has not been given the life of man,
is like potential energy; the rock balanced at the tip of the cliff.
useless until it is converted through the vocal chords, the tongue, the lips, of man.
the mind can create words, phrases, expressions of thought, but
the gap between writing and speaking is large.
written ------ and ------ spoken.
expressed ------ and ------ claimed.
anonymous ------ and------ fully responsible.

Make the leap
Clear the gap
Vault the gorge
But know this:
Once once you have made, cleared, vaulted,
there is NO going back.
Embrace it.
peace
-D weazy

My Travels

Wat up world...
im here in Middletown, Delaware with family.
Let me rewind for you to the beginning, although so much has happened over the past four days...
the four and a half hour flight...
the cramped ass...
arriving into jfk at 6:30 AM...
the rental car drama that lasted for 2 hours...
arriving at the hotel at 2 PM...
haircut in Harlem...
the Famous Fish Market...
dinner at Londell's...
Finally sleep at the hotel.

[day two]

Breakfast at Golden's in Teaneck...
off to Staten island to see more family...
still in Staten island...
still in Staten island...
ok, back to the Hotel...
holla at the Jets running back in the lobby...(they lost)
sleep...

[day three]

Church in Englewood, NJ...
lunch with more family in Teaneck...
good laughs...
good times...
packing up at the hotel...
dinner at Floridita with titi carmen...
master packing job in the Lincoln...
the drive to Delaware...
more family...
asleep late in Middletown...

[day four]
awaking late, to the sunny in december?...
morning run with the ipod...
vultures chillin on the roof, waiting...
the near death doberman experience...
the sprint home...
GREAT breakfast...
pop's grits...
movin the marble mammoth...
into Philly to see more family...
cheesesteak and hoagies...
South Street and Lorenzo and Sons...
back to Middletown...
chillin with them CUz's...
And here i am.

TBC... when i return to D town...
-peace
dweazy

WAT up to all you people that may happen upon my blog in the next week or so!!
Im headin out of town on Christmas for awhile.
i will try to keep up on the blog, but i dont know exactly what my internet acess will be and how much time i will have (busy season) ya dig?
anyway, MERRY CHRISTMAS to all!
happy new year!
GOD BLESS!
-dweazy

HEART

the dark room
the light trying to force its way through the blinds
the silent war.


the paralysed soul
held inactive by decisions from the past,
the heart a jail cell for a good soul.


the fear of a man
the power of fear infiltrating motivation
the motivation now transformed
the transformed actions that result
result in catastrophe
catastrophe of the mind or catastrophe of the hand
the hand and the mind being directly connected not always
but always in sync
in sync but behind the scenes, behind the curtains
the curtains being the temporal lobe of the brain
the brain will sit you down and explain
explain the circumstances surrounding these events
these events that left a 17 year old without a heart beating
beaten till his face was unrecognizable in an alley.

Actually, the bloody money in his limp grip tells a clue
a clue back to that motivation
that motivation of fear
fear and survival
surviving, and supporting his husbandless mother
a mother that doesn't KNOW her son
KNEW her son superficially
officially, she is not to blame
the blame lies in the father because it takes two to raise the son best
the best sun
will rise today over the world
the world that was rained on last night
last night the rain came down
down also went his heart beat to nothing

nobody will really ever know his story
the story that will be known will not explain what he can no longer provide
provision of reasons and MOTIVATIONS
what motivated his heart to deal
deal with the steel tryin to earn a meal.

this is the tragedy of the human heart
A woman so heartless?
i say a woman so heartful.
too much of the heart and its murderous ways
plays you too close the the edge
it plays YOU, it gains control
takes the reins
starts to Reign
to rain down its agenda.

Beware the heart.
The heart is a beautiful monster.
Control IT.
Then,
you can be great.
IT Controlling you.
Then,
you can be destroyed.
Gen 6:5
-peace
Dweazy

Second installment, Part Two. Let us never forget...Dedicated to Bryn Marsden Ransdell July 24 1992-October 10 2008

In Silveyville she lays,
in unending meadows she plays,
what would she have us do with the rest of our days?

To have fun and do everything we can,
regardless of that Greater plan?

To do and do again, as our nature would lead,
rolling towards the brink at unbeleivable speed?

To live for ourselves,
go out and get ours,
not giving a thought to the nails and the scars?

To take all the glory, credit, and due,
when it all belongs to who? not you.

To all of these above,
her answer would be no.
She would remind us that we will reap what we sow.
Remind us that our days are numbered,
a number not disclosed to any but the Father.

"So live for Him all your days",
that is what i beleive she would say.
"Not seeking fun, glory, or fame,
but seek to love others and honor His name".

Although you left, i sense that you are still here,
i pray that i will remember every day of every year,
To follow your example, emblazoned by a beautiful life cut short.
But we are comforted here, knowing that you now reside in the most beautiful of courts,
you are in paradise, of course.

Someday, near of far,
i will join you there
above the stars.
So i thankyou for reminding me,
to know theres always more then my eye can see,
and truly be the best that i can be.
Psalm 73: 23-4