first installment. Real Talk 101

i got some fire i need to spit:


The MAN says "take note"
and as i look down at these keys
i realize it could be any note from a flat to d.

The MAN says "here are the keys"
and as i feel the keys in my pocket
i realize keys can open a door- but they also lock it.

The MAN says "follow your heart"
and as i look into my heart
i realize what is in a heart worth following?
the urge to surge forward after these mortal things?

And i realize "follow your heart"
should read, "follow your heART"
for the beat that it comprises
is your life that rises-
and falls accordingly
if only
if only Kanye wasnt so heartless.
only the woman?
NO
just as two hearts must make one.
only TWO hearts can make none.
Kwest knows that it takes two to tango.

moving on.

the lyrical idiocy of the modern world.
using the spoken word as pearls
given to swine.

the light that did show
dims to a faint glow
woah
the foe
is greater now the befo
integrating that which once was light, now a light called "notlight", into the fight for the mind
inspite
of resistance (which is futile)
but will continue without respite.

and we all respond with "Aight."
AIGHT?
aight to the word nigger, aight to the word rape, and these words in their full meaning thrive. wherein the first can be defined by the second in regards to culture and life.
aight to the word Change. Change here meaning the attempt to change standards to coincide with the downward flow of secular culture.
aight to poverty
aight to suffering. not personal of course, but the course is set before us
a four course meal,
while others beg to eat that orange peel
we say aight.
well wat if you died tonight.
aight then?
but that is why i pick up this pen.
provoked thought
fighting against the rot
of our minds
overtime.
the melting, bubbling, fermenting, churning pot that is the mind, my mind.
it can find some form here.
finale

in this season of cheer
let love peace and ___ be near
why blank?
go into your mindtank
insert what for you should be near
that hasnt been so far this year.
and then take it from this paper here
transfered to the life you live
transfered to the vibe you give
transfered.
be careful not to let it wane,
as time progesses forward again
be your own judge, throw down the gavel
dont lose your head, keep it level
aight--HA see even i do too.
its enough here that i preached at you.
but truly to myself most of all.
like paul-
LLWG
JSSG
-dweazy

Break...Awesome! but...

Hey yo watt up world. this is dweazy actually taking up the prof's recommendation to keep the blog alive...who would've guessed. HAHA But no, real talk, i do enjoy writing as a past time, i just never have enough past time at hand to allocate some to free writing. UNTIL NOW. Christmas Break 2008. For the last four years of my life this time has been filled with increased working hours at the local Nugget supermarket here in town. And then there was the annual associate appreciation party, which was always somewhat weird because it was the one time that you could see everyone outside of the work environment. Those of you out there that work in the corporate world know exactly what im talking about. But the party was always cool because there was always good food, good prizes, somewhat good entertainment, and the ALWAYS good bonus check. But this christmas break, there is none of that for me. Lament not! Change is good. I stopped working for Nugget Market inc. in august of this year because the demands of school as well as the rigors of football devoured all my time and energy. Nugget and I parted ways on good terms and i could probably get my job back if i really needed too. The current economy however has prompted the corporate office to put a freeze on hiring for the time being. At least that is the word on the streets...
Anyway, here i am. unemployed, with loads of time on my hands. Thus my current situation...sitting in my empty apartment, listening to my itunes on shuffle, while writing this blog. The song currently playing is "DJ play a love song" by Jamie Foxx Feat. Twista, from his album "Unpredictable". I recommend it to any and all. OK I'm about to watch the new house episode.....OK just finished it. Good episode. House actually attempts to be nice. But Foreman made out with the bisexual (albeit hot) doctor at the end... i expect better Foreman....
Anyway, enough rambling. To sum it all up, its been awhile since Ive had this much time on my hands, but its not all bad. this free time allows me time to actually think. Life flies by at shutter speeds unimaginable, and often life thrives on more impulse then thoughtfulness. This holiday season i aim to think on this past quarter; what i can take away from it, what i should leave behind. Also i aim to be a more thoughtful person. In this time of giving, i hope to learn to better give through the way i live.
That's enough for now. its been good. i aim to make a habit of placing my thoughts here on the world wide web for all to see if they wish... its also a place to save them and look back. But now i outta here. I'm gonna go get busy doing pretty much nothing. Peace salaam asalyakem shalom....